green with envy

I hate that I am such the jealous person that I am. Especially when I have no right to feel that way. I mean, I guess I have a right to feel that way, but with the past history, I really don't. I should be happy, I should be glad, but all I can do is sit here and think "Damnit, that could be me." I should not feel like this at all. I am perfectly happy, I have everything I want, everyone I want, and everything is just happening for me. My life is right in place, going the way that I want it to go, yet I get upset over nothing and let it bother me. The Bible tells me in Hebrews 13:5, "Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." I know that I should be content with what I have and know that God is here with me all the time and always will be, but I just cannot get over this! UGGGH