The Weight is Gone!

Today was such an eventful day in my life. I made ammends with people, I figured out what I think is best for ME, I think I am getting my life in order right now. This feeling is so great. I feel like I have everything under control and it's awesome! I cannot wait to see what God has in store for me next! (:

UNIFY!

UNIFY was SO gooood. And of course Mellow Mushroom with the frands was GREAT! I saw this video and I can't decide if I like it or not, I think I do. His voice reminds me so much of Saosin, and I do enjoy some saosin. So here it is! Have a great weekend, be blessed!

Because of Him

Well I don’t know what you’ve heard
About the man who created this earth
But listen and I’ll tell you
About the things he went through

He gives His love and grace to all
He’ll be there when you fall
To pick you up again
He’ll help keep you from sin

With the sacrifice he made
With his own son’s blood he paid
For you and for me
To live and to breathe

Because of him I am made new
Because of him there’s things I wanna do
I wanna tell everyone about Him

Because of him I’m not afraid
Because of him the one who paid
His own life for mine
He’s one of a kind

He son died but not in vain
He suffered so much pain
But in his eyes,
it was so worth it

Tortured to his death
Then laid to rest
Only to be
Resurrected

Now he’s with his daddy
In the great kingdom of heaven
No longer does he suffer
He lives for eternity

Because of him I am made new
Because of him there’s things I wanna do
I wanna tell everyone about Him

Because of him I’m not afraid
Because of him the one who paid
His own life for mine

Let me tell you He’s one of a kind

Alone Time

Today, I thought was going to be just a boring day where I realize that I don't really have many friends, I don't really have a life, and was pretty much just going to have a pity party for myself. Until I realized that this is not going to be a boring day. This is not going to be a pity party for myself. This day is going to be all for HIM, HIS MAJESTY! I am not worried about how many friends I have because I will ALWAYS have at least one and that's HIM. I am not worried about being bored because with HIM, I will always have something to work on. I am not going to throw myself a pity party because today, I am grateful to be ALIVE! Today, I give up my day for HIM. Today, I ask for the answers from HIM. Today, I realize life isn't about how many friends you have or protecting your ego, LIFE IS ABOUT HIM AND LIVING FOR HIM. I've started a new life. Now the question is, when are you going to start yours?

Good Day

Your life is the song you sing
and the whole world is listening. (:

Lord I Will Lift You High

Jesus break these chains, that bind my feet
Help me to see, that I don’t need these things
Theses things that hold me back, from loving you with all my heart

There are so many times when the enemy calls my name
Lord I ask you to help me resist his call
Because I know that what he offers is nothing compared to your love

Lord let your light shine down
Shine down over me
I want to feel your warmth
I want to feel your touch

Lord you come first
Over everything
I will lift you high
I will lift you high

You gave me the greatest gift that I could ever get
You sent your only son to this earth to die for me
Every action that I take I do it because you live through me

How could I have been so blind
To not see that you were by my side, this whole time
Lord I will never let you down like I have so many times before

You love me despite of my faults
In your eyes i'm beautiful
Another one of your precious children
Lord I live my life for you

So Lord let your light shine down
Shine down over me
I want to feel your warmth
I want to feel your touch

Lord you come first
Over everything
I will lift you high
I will lift you high

Lord you come first
Over everything
I will lift you high
I will lift you high

Lord I lift you high

green with envy

I hate that I am such the jealous person that I am. Especially when I have no right to feel that way. I mean, I guess I have a right to feel that way, but with the past history, I really don't. I should be happy, I should be glad, but all I can do is sit here and think "Damnit, that could be me." I should not feel like this at all. I am perfectly happy, I have everything I want, everyone I want, and everything is just happening for me. My life is right in place, going the way that I want it to go, yet I get upset over nothing and let it bother me. The Bible tells me in Hebrews 13:5, "Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." I know that I should be content with what I have and know that God is here with me all the time and always will be, but I just cannot get over this! UGGGH

Christianity

"Imagine a tiny ant. Now, what does that ant know about you or your life? Nothing, it's basically impossible. Now think of yourself, a tiny human. What can YOU as this tiny human know about this 'God'. Think, the difference and size in knowledge of a human to an ant is about arms length, but the difference between you and 'God' is from what, here (FL) to California?"

This is the series of questions, that are making me think over EVERYTHING. No this is not me questioning my beliefs as a Christian, and no this is not about me getting ready to bash people who aren't Christians. This entry is about me defending my faith. This entry is to prove a point about my faith. This entry is to stand up for my God who is good in every way.

He created us in His imagine, therefore I believe that there is something within us, that allows us to relate to Him. I don't think that my God is a sadistic God who would just put humans on this big rock to play with them. I don't believe that we are His little play toys. I believe that he sent His only son, Jesus Christ to die for me, and for you. I KNOW that He shows His love for me not only through the death and resurrection of His son, but through His word. And through His word, He reveals Himself. Unlike the ant, we, as humans are capable of knowledge, thinking, and reasoning. Unlike the ant, we have His word to read. Unlike the ant, we have prayer so that we may talk to our Father. So no, I do not picture myself as an ant looking up to a human. I picture myself as a beautiful child of a loving, caring, powerful, God. And no, I do not think that my human brain could ever wrap around Him or His love and plans for us. But that's okay, because I don't have to know the specifics of Him. Just to know His love is enough for me.

As a Christian, it is a constant battle. A battle against the enemy, other people, and even sometimes myself. As a child of the Lord, I look to His word for strength and the will to deal with my oppressors. In His word, He tells us;

10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power.
11 Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes.
12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.
14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place,
15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace.
16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.
17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.

So suit up, get the amour of the Lord. Stand firm and steadfast in His power. Don't let oppressors bring you down. Pray for an open, understanding heart.

SOLDIER UP!

new weeeek

and i'm startin' it right. i went to my classes today! though i still have one more, i know i'll go to it. but the past month or so i've really been slackin' in the school department, so starting today, this week, i WILL go to EVERY class EVERY day. i can do it! i willl do it!

also, just had a conversation with a friend that made me think. isn't it amazing how we can find so much time to fit in things in our schedule that we WANT to do, yet when it comes to prayer and bible devotions or going to church, we can never seem to make the time? why is it that if your friend calls last minute to go see a movie, you can rush and get ready and go, but we can't seem to find 5 minutes a day to talk to Jesus? he gave up HIS life for us, and we can't even thank him by giving him at least 5 minutes a day? i mean, i can't say that i sit here everyday and read the bible for hours and pray non-stop, because i don't, but i do pray every night. the least that i can give Him is a prayer every night. moral of the story i guess is, don't find time, make time. make time for your Lord and savior, after all, he made time for you.

dawgies

so i've decided that if i got to breed dogs for the rest of my life, it would be complete. i'm watching dogs 101 with my mom right now and they have chaweenies, and chorkies, and puggles, and i want to do that. ): i guess i could still do that if i went to vet schoool. then i could take care of them myself too! yes. so, a short list of life goals in in order!

1. gradaute from unf with a biology degree.
2. go to grad school for veterinary sciences.
3. have my own practice.
4. raise designer dogs.

shuttter island

this movie was INCREDIBLE. i would say that it is one of the ONLY movies that have been made from a book that I really enjoyed. I would definitely go see it many more times. DiCaprio was gorgeous as always. (: it's been a year or two since i last read the book, but the movie went along almost exactly with the book, or at least what i remember of it.

oh and encase you were wondering, yes, jesus loves you. (:

he loves you more than me.

and me more than you.

it's complicated, but true. (:

movie day.

i know yesterday i said that i really wanted to see shutter island, but had no one to go with, but my mom and i are going today! i am so excited. i'm just hoping that the movie is as good as or better than the book. but i must say that i always find the book to be better. i guess it's something to do with letting your own imagination play the "movie" in your head, so when you see it in production and it's not as you thought that it should be, you criticize. but yeah, so, when i return, i shall have a movie review to share! (:

first blooog!

hellllo wonderful folks at blogspot! (: so i've tried this whole blogging thing before, but it didn't quite work out. so let's try this one mo' 'gain!

alright, so i am SO exicited for shutter island. i wanted to go see it tonight, but a. i had no one to go with and b. i have no money anyways. ): but i read the book a year or so ago and was done with it in like a day or two. it was SO goood. my english teacher told me that they were planning on making a movie out of it and i about pooped my freaking pants. needless to say, i'm so excited to see if the movie is as good as the book was. so i'm crosssin my fingers!