looking back

So it's been about 2 months since I've posted to this thing, idk what's wrong with me! But yeah, so I am definitely going to start going back to my old ways and blogging on her pretty much daily. It's crazy to look back and know that I wrote some of this stuff. I have fallen, or more like I just feel like I have fallen so far from that point. That was the best point in my life. I felt SO close with the Lord and now, while I know that he still loves me and of course I love him, I just don't feel as close. I pretty much stopped going to church, i just want to find somewhere i feel comfortable, where I'm not associated with drama, where no one knows me, where I can be myself, because honestly, the church I was going to, is way too much of a social thing for people instead of a time for worshiping our awesome God. So, goal for the next weeks are to try and post more often and hopefully to try and get my relationship with the Lord back to where it was.